As for the PS of the week-
I came home tonight and checked PS, and found a handful of them that I could relate to. However, the events of this week were weighing heavily on my mind, so I decided it was time to make mine. Will I send it in? Who knows at this point. It might be one of those things that is thereputic just getting it out.
I'd mentioned that I was ridding my life of unhealthy relationships this month. Tonight I made a tough call, but one that already makes me feel better, and ended things with Heth. I'd explain why, but it wouldn't be fair to make accusations in a medium that she can't defend herself, no matter how just those accusations may be. Cliff Notes, I am no longer going to allow people to "fix" themselves at my expense.
Directly after this, I attempted to stop by Nate's to cry and his shoulder, and crash on his couch. He was gone. At that time of night, it means one thing. He's moved on, physically at least. Considering I haven't, it hurt, though more in a melancholy way than anything else.
Another relationship was ended this week, not because I didn't want the person in my life any longer, but because I felt it was the right thing to do. So know that I do care for you, but this way is best for everyone involved. I'm sorry if you're hurt....I never intended that....but I don't want anyone else hurt either.
It's been a rather emotionally draining week. I haven't even mentioned the bad dates! Perhaps tomorrow I will, to draw Hell Week to close on a humorous note. Regine Spektor sold out, so I won't be going to that. :( However, there's a PS event in KC on Monday I plan on attending, so I suppose things are looking up. For the mean time....
I'm still here.
~K
"I'm holding on your rope, Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say that...
It's too late to apologize"
Apologize-One Republic
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